the spark is back

For the past few weeks I have had this major creative block going on. It's been frustrating especially with having to produce art in class. My motivation and inspiration have been m.i.a. and the pressure to make, create and have it "look good" has been eating me up a little. I was finding myself avoiding my studio, my altered book, my journal, even people in my life. I was hiding. For me it's hard to make art when you are initially hiding from yourself. As an artist, I feel that I am wanting to express myself through my art. But what happens when you don't want to express anything? Art just isn't enough sometimes.

When I put my pieces up last night I started to get a glimpse of what I could start working with a little more. The tangible. Drawing and painting have been my main focus of interest since I was a kid, but since coming to JFKU I find that working with objects, layers of materials, and a glue gun (ha!) are enabling me to express on a larger playing field. When I started the 2D project I felt lost and overwhelmed by the task. As soon as I moved about from my own rigidity of having to draw or paint, things started to flow. It's amazing what can be produced when I use my hands differently. Instead of holding the brush, I'm holding the scissors and glue and glass. I'm loving the idea of breaking stuff and putting it back together. I think that this could be something to take further, maybe even with music. Taking a song and breaking it into segments and then putting it back together out of order.

Hmm...something to play with.